I work very hard and am attending college to obtain my degree in the Human Service field. Writing makes me feel alive and gives me the opportunity to touch those whom I would not be able to otherwise. Last but not least, I have been blessed with two amazing daughters who love me completely and support my dreams. Feel free to contact me with questions, concerns or feedback.
Every once in a while I mention my kids in my writing. I try to exempt them from too much exposure. To heck with it, it’s Christmas and I am going all out.
Stephanie is 19 and heading to college next month. She is quite busy with work, sleeping and friends. Although she is in the room next to me most nights, it appears she has already left my nest. I have very few worries knowing that she is street smart and can hold her own. She is a goofball, very friendly and rarely complains. She works, takes care of her bills and recently broke free and obtained her own cell phone service. Talk about being kicked to the curb.
Auburn is 18 and a senior in High School. She is on the honor roll and at times holds a 4.0 GPA. Her main focus is studying, music and hanging out. She recently joined the gym and we work out 4-5 times a week. is her favorite singer and she knows every one of her songs by heart. She is smart, witty and most important, straightforward. After reading her acceptance letter to Alverno College, I threw her about 100 high-fives and jumped around the house until I tired myself out.
Although I could write a book about my daughters, I want to focus on something much more important. Because of the time of year, everyone is so focused on what to buy for family and friends. I am so blessed and fortunate enough to inform the world that I have been given two precious gifts since 1991.
Some say that having children makes you a better person, and I can attest that it has created such in me. I can’t say my life was completely out of control at one time or another, yet knowing that I was responsible for the lives of others brought me back more often than not to a place of right. If you were given a few minutes with my daughters, and they were given the ability to speak freely, they will inform you that I am not perfect. I am sure they would bring up and occasion or two within the past year where I disappointed them greatly.
Yet, they have shown me that after a few minutes, hours, days or weeks, I am 85.5% forgiven. They embrace me, spend time with me, laugh with me and talk with me. With or without makeup, they make me feel beautiful. They have helped me to create a home in which I want to live and be a part of. They also give me just the right amount of resistance in order to allow me to appreciate the good times along with the not so good times.
Because of them, I have raised my standard regarding a future life partner. Although I will be the one to make the final decision, it is important to me that everyone loves and accepts one another and works together for a greater good. It also allows me the opportunity to want more for them regarding partnership, love and marriage.
Stephanie and Auburn, you are my friends, pals, buddies, keeper of secrets and backbone. Without you, I would not be where I am today. Thank you for allowing me to continue to be your mother and be a part of your lives.
Because of you, I feel important, special, beautiful, intelligent and so much more. You have given me the greatest gift of all, unconditional love.
I love you, I love you, I love you.
PS: I wrote a song for you!